Well, I kind of knew this was going to happen. That’s okay, I guess. It’s one of the perks of self-publishing. I can set an artificial deadline and blow it! Seriously, I am still working on Kingdom of Happy Fools. I on about chapter 7 (of 20) in the revisions. I had to take everything apart (if you recall) and put it all back together in order to maintain the structure of the novel. There were many parts that I had to move around and that takes time to read and adjust. Much more than I thought. The problem I have encountered, though, is more grave than I had anticipated.
It seems that with all the downtime, I have begun to wane in my interest (though it pains me to admit this) in this project. I have spent over a year planning and writing, but I think it seems to me that I am writing for blind eyes because nobody seems to want to read what I have written. Now, this may or may not be true, it’s just how I’m feeling at the moment, and isn’t this blog what it’s about? The mind of a writer is weird. We are weird creatures who seem to need validation in order to keep writing.
That’s not really the case. I write because my brain won’t let me stop…believe me, I have tried. No matter what, I wander back into Everspyyre only to find that there’s another story waiting in its depths to be told. When I’m in the throes of writing the first draft, I feel a little better about it. It’s the revisions that kill me. They can be long and tedious, but I also know that it is part of the process. Yes, people, this is completely normal. Even J. K. Rowling has stated on Twitter that she looked back on her writing for the day and ended up with a high score on Tetris.
Our minds wander a bit. Maybe that’s what makes us writers.
For now, I’ll just keep on keeping on and work at it until I feel (just like the last book) that I cannot make it any better. Yes, there comes a point where I simply don’t know how to make it any better. That’s when I feel I am ready to press the Publish button from Amazon.